My First DMT Trip: Encountering Elohim & Leaving Atheism

My first DMT experience was when I realized that I was no longer an atheist. I knew absolutely nothing of the spirit world at this time and I had not even read any trip reports of what DMT does to you. This was probably for the best. I took the hits and the ceiling of my shed opened up into a portal. I could see the spirit world on the other side and some kind of being entered into the room. He was made of orbs and energies and colors. I immediately start freaking out thinking I had broken open a portal to another dimension and just doomed us all. I start to panic. What have I done? The being fills the room and starts spinning around and I look over to my dog Catch and he is looking around at all the orbs as well. Fuck, he can see them too. This is real. I freak out and decide that I need to get out of this shed immediately. Me and Catch bolt for the door and I open the door and my backyard flickers from its usual self into some alien foreign landscape into a dimension of these strange yellowish crystals. I determine that I can still walk on them and bolt back to my house. I run around the side of my house to the front door (I have no idea why I didn’t go through the back door) and run into my room and hide under the covers. I finally muster up the courage to peek out the window to see if that thing is still in the shed. I can see from the open double doors that it is. Fuck is this my reality now? Is this where I will spend the rest of my days in this strange place? What does that even mean? Fuck. I decide that I must do something about this. If that means that I have to go do battle with this thing, then so be it. I go out the back door and peek around the corner. It is still in there. I creep over to the breaker box behind the house and turn off the power to the shed. In hindsight I have no idea what this was even going to accomplish if I am about to do battle with a demon? The thought scares me and I run back inside under the covers with Catch. Several minutes go by and then I decide to go back out. I grab my favorite stick at the time and slowly saunter up to the door with a flashlight. The shed is empty. I look at Catch and we are both confused about what is going on. It would appear that this is not my reality now and we are going to live to fight another day in this dimension. I would find out years later that this was Elohim. This was the first time that he came to visit me. I am no longer an atheist. But what does any of this mean? What the hell did I just extract? I begin to start to smoke this mystical magical crystal every night before bed to try to learn what that was. I am not afraid of what I might find, I need to know. Bring it on spirits.

Describes a foundational DMT experience where the user encountered a being of light and energy, fundamentally shifting their worldview from atheism to spiritual belief. Despite the initial terror and chaotic attempt to 'battle' the entity, the experience sparked an ongoing, courageous inquiry into the nature of these realities.