Confusing Relationship Dynamics & Self-Discovery

Feeling really just very confused in this relationship / connection dynamic. Learning a lot about myself and intending to let it be light. I’ve noticed it can be so easy for me to contort my preferences to be more palatable for someone - and it’s barely something I consciously noticed. In this connection in particular, I feel so much warmth & connection when I’m in person with them. And then .. (we live in different states, great family friends) via text it’s soooo.. nothing. So stale. Even on FaceTime, pretty much the exact same thing. And I’ll be real, I understand text is not the most expressive medium… but i’ve felt that depth and ease and flow in conversation countless other times, with so many different types of people. And the spark just isn’t there on FaceTime either. So, I don’t know, I feel like I’m in a space where I want to connect with him, explore the connection further.. but it just feels like as far as the spark go I just run into dead ends. And if I’m being super honest, it’s really tricky to not see this as a person shortcoming in my relational nature.  And I also understand that Chiron just went into Taurus! And I’m pretty sure I just started my luteal phase. So, lots going on, and my cancer North node is just asking me to sit in the feeling, and not try to figure anything out / find any definitive conclusions about what this means about me or him or the connection.  So thank you for reading and letting me express this in a healthy way ♥️🌅 hope you’re having a beautiful day out there 🙏 

The user explores a confusing long-distance relationship dynamic characterized by a disconnect between in-person warmth and digital staleness, ultimately choosing to practice mindfulness and presence rather than forcing conclusions. They reflect on their tendency to people-please and practice self-compassion by framing the experience through astrological awareness while resisting self-criticism.

Rejection will always be part of life no matter what you do. That's the consequence of putting yourself out there but…. It's also the only way you can get the reward as well. Keeping yourself in emotional limbo out of fear from putting yourself out there and risking a no or take a chance and risk a yes. What's the worse that can happen?

honestly the fact that you can feel that difference so clearly, between in person and digital, says something real. some connections just live in certain spaces and that's ok, doesn't mean you're broken. and yeah sitting with it instead of trying to solve it is probably the move right now. your nervous system knows the difference even if your brain wants to make it mean something about you

@suungod hi! I really enjoyed reading this, but I want to point out something… your intuition knows and you brain is trying to rationalize. 🫶🏻 Follow your gut 🖤 it will lead you to the highest alignment. From this post, this human is not long term. It’s a lesson… You are masking you. That’s gonna cause some discomfort in your skin Dry texts. You want more. Dry FaceTime. You want more. So yeah, he has some boxes but not the whole package. What are the qualities you like and want to keep, the non negotiables you’ve discovered (texting seems important), and move forward with clearer knowledge of self. 🫶🏻🖤 universe will open after the lesson closes, choose you always. 🖤

@suungod Do not shrink yourself for others. Please 🙏🏼 shine bright, we need authentic you!!! ☀️☀️☀️☀️

@suungod Some have never talked in person. Some may never talk with a lover in this lifetime. Be present, be grateful. To live with now is better than to not live at all. ❤️ Much love ✌️

@youngvagabond this has given me SO much perspective in the last 12 hours here oh my goodness. Thank you so much for this 🙏♥️ deeply grateful

@kinginyellow gosh this so true. Thank you for sharing your perspective. I’ve been feeling this more and more, as I get closer, and want to continue getting closer, I feel more walls going up & it’s overall just a fascinating thing to be mindful of. Thank you again for commenting :) I always really appreciate people sharing 

@lilsoutherngoth oh angel, thank you so much for this 🥹♥️ yes it’s very odd, I think a large part of me really connects with what you’re saying. It’s someone I love deeply, but it’s like our ways of expressing care and affection are just fundamentally different. I really don’t know. I really appreciate the focus of what are the qualities I like… The newfound preferences I’ve discovered.. and moving toward even more clarity. Thank you 🙏🙏❤️ so so much 

@lilsoutherngoth 🥹🥹🥹♥️♥️♥️ Same to you!!! Sending love & vibrant energy