Cannabis: Unlocking Truth and Overcoming Melancholy

Ah, words! I seek respite. I'm bursting. The ever dampening of this pressure that's building I feel it shrinking my universe. From a fragmented dream to an unfinished project until this way of being had every aspect of my life in a chokehold. It started out with a little bit of procrastination, maybe too much talking less walking. Amidst unconscious projection and one's head metaphorically barely above water, like they do, years passed. The baggage of the melancholy of everything that I didn't try harder for stares me in the face. Well what motherfucker!? But wait, echoes The watcher. As the illusion of separateness dissolved and with it, the melancholy, the confusion, and the untruths. Chapter 1: Tell me your story. What is it that you believe to be your reason or cause for your DOC. (Drug of choice) I've been exposed to the hidden realms. I forged a path that didn't exist before. I've heard the echoes of the whispers before me. I bravely endured the pain of the stark reality of Truth and survived. I've been purified and deitied. I had no eyes, no nose, no mouth, no fingers, and I was seeking an answer to my pain. The solution wasn't instant when I stumbled upon it. Raw and abrasive, it pricked my bubble of comfort until it hung raggedy, a taped up version of its previous shiny and unproductive self. Unidentified and unrealized, it had no armor and no backbone. I tried at one point, to hide the fact that the pearl translucence was a waste of time until I stepped back and saw the bigger picture, maybe from someone else's eyes I think. It was then that I ripped off the remains of its tattered rotting dead weight and allowed room for my true self to shine. And it was only then that I realized I was being held back. Followed closely by the realization of this consciousness that I despised, was actually a gift. The problem I was running from, the obstacle in my past, was actually the solution pre-adjudicated. And that obstacle? That was the way. And that which you thought you had hated not only did you love but it was you. Drugs don't cause problems people cause problems. I don't appreciate the YouTubers who spread the fear and lies and the politicians who enforce those lies through their laws but most of all I do not appreciate the abusers who have made this into a problem. We were granted a portal to another realm of existence. To come with a pure heart and no expectations is absolutely critical. The ideal candidate is self-aware, mature, and in a state of unity consciousness. And since we're subjected to our humanity, those who possess such characteristics suffer from imbalances as well. That's what this is for. For all manners of existence and all states of development personal and interpersonal. As a matter of fact any entity whether the origination is from our shared realm or that of another whether his existence is from the non-linear timeline that we occupy or another. Whether he is on his journey in the Earth or whether he has transcended to the next level of his soul's development ... before or after life. Balance is here. You will leave here as such. Mind you this does not mean happiness, balance is balance happiness is a choice. This does not mean you will find yourself richer. If you don't understand the objective of balance.. then you really belong here. Balance is the neutral point. It is akin to the abyss. It is the nothing that is everything. Clearing a nuance that was spawned from untruths and integration via CBT shows you to yourself, there is no need for any outside authority or punishment. An imbalance is its own punishment. The hidden obscured places that cognitive dissonance has layered thought forms over and has fused its own being over that, is tested by fire. As your awareness gains eyes, ears, and your nubs of hands grow feelers as fingers, contain your energy. Consciousness is not a chore it's not extra or special, it is absolute. It is not blurred, unclear, joking, or absent. It speaks with cadence and walks a path of god-given purpose and light. Your awareness does not coddle, it acknowledges. Your emotions do not navigate they compute and contribute selflessly to a bigger understanding. They do not seek control they seek only the tools for equilibrium and the certainty of nothing. Chapter 2: Nothing matters. Nothing is the reason you're stuck. The criticism and doubt that you hear, no matter how urgent or critical the reasoning, it's nothing. You gave permission to yourself mentally, for whatever reason, a long time ago to cover up certain sources of intention with this reason and this doubt. In the moment, it may have temporarily served a purpose. A purpose that should never have existed in the first place. Now that we're in the future, because you forgot to forget it, it grows like the coral reef over the window that lies open between you and your options. The false comfort of your ways they manipulated the system. Rooted in duality they minimize your options and mitigated the opposition from within yourself. ....

This post is a profound, philosophical reflection on overcoming personal struggles, procrastination, and the melancholy of unfulfilled potential, reframing drug use not as a cause of problems but as a catalyst for dissolving the illusion of separateness and discovering the 'truth' of one's being. It posits that past obstacles and perceived flaws are actually solutions, advocating for balance and self-awareness as the ultimate goals, distinct from happiness or material wealth, and suggesting that true understanding comes from embracing this neutral point.